Lupus

My Wife has lupus and I see her strength every day I wake up and every night I go to sleep. She has connected with people on social media that shares with her the struggles of being up and down fighting this battle. I try my best to handle everyday life such as bills, mortgage, etc., to take most of that responsibility off her mind and make it as comfortable as possible. Being human, I do sometimes fall by the waste side and express to her what I go through, but I pull myself back together hold my head up and assume control by making sure she is comfortable. I pray hard that her condition changes such as go back into remission, or some miraculous miracle happens and she's lupus free. If anything, I want to be there for her as much as possible by putting myself in the position of maintaining a steady income while at home, so I'm present whenever I'm needed. She's not incapacitated or anything like that, but she does need a present figure on her bad days, and I feel guilty I have to get up in the morning and leave the house for work not knowing if I will return due to me being a truck driver and I witness accidents every time I get on the road. It's a scary feeling to know if I don't make it home who will be there to maintain the comfort that I've provided her. I could go further into her struggles and loss she experienced and the stress and hurt it caused her behind that. It was hard for me to watch because it felt like my heart was carrying a million tons to witness the pain she went through, and I pray to God that will never be the case if I do leave this earthly realm before she does. I'll continue to be there for however long as I'm alive and I'll keep working on ways of alternate means that will put me in position to be there for her full time. The love for my wife is beyond this life and right now as I'm at home typing, she is sound asleep resting and comfortable. Me, on the other hand, I'm trying my best to keep everything together... For her, I'll take on the whole world. 

Love Your Husband.